Diary of a Fat Girl

Ok ok...I know it's been a couple months since you all have seen a post from me. You are probably wondering why. Well to be honest, after hitting my 50 lb weight loss I felt like I ran out of goals. Which is what happens to me every time! I start making excuses as to why I am not eating well or working out as much. Well today that ends here.  We all fall down and honestly you can't go through life without doing it. The thing I am proud of is I am catching it before I get to a point of where I was. (Plus, I got rid of all my "fat" clothes so I have no choice!) After hitting 170 I have gained 4 lbs back, not a lot to the average person, but I can feel it and that is NOT good. I told you all I would be honest with my journey, because I am human and like I said I make mistakes. I started a new job, which got super stressful because I have been in the same routine for 6 years and leaving somewhere and being the "new" kid kind of through me out of my routine. I...

20 Weeks... it took me 20 weeks to get "Over the Hill"! Yes I am proud to say that I hit -50 lbs today! I finally reached a goal! It is an amazing feeling. Here's a little reminder of what 220 pounds looked like on me verses my new and improved 170 pound body. My stats are even more incredible. So week 4 is when I started logging my inches: Week 4:                           Week 20: Weight= 204lbs            Weight= 170lbs       -34 lbs Chest= 42.5"                Chest= 26.5".          -16 in R Arm= 13.5"                R Arm= 12"             -1.5 in L Arm = 13.5"                L Arm= 12"             -1.5 in Belly/Waist= 44.5"       Belly/Waist= 37.5" ...

So my weigh in this week is still the same at 172. I did lose 1/2 in in each leg, but that's about it this week. I would like to think that my muscle mass is what's taking over, but I really don't know. I feel thinner each week, and really that's all that matters! Not to mention I finally reached my size 10 jeans! Which brings me to this blog... I know once a month you get to see my body transform, but I wanted to see how different my body looked in some of my old clothes. OH EM GEE this was so much fun! December 2011:   Dress size 14/16 You can't even tell in this after photo, but all that fabric in the stomach has about 2 inches from it to my belly. It also make me look like I have NO BOOBS at all! August 2012:  Dress size 12 I look like a sausage stuffed in that dress! GAH! Look how much longer it is on me now. (Way more appropriate) I even have to take this in just a tad in the chest. I love this dress so much more now than looking back! Wedding Day 2012:  Dress...

This week was super tough on me. Between the soreness, pulling muscles, my period, and cravings I had a hard week, but my stats aren't too bad. I weighed in at 175 which I knew would happen being on my period with all that bloating, but I lost a total of 1 whole inch off my body. Haha! Next week should be better! I had some requests to talk about my special watch I wear during my workouts. So I can tell you what I have and how I use it, but there are so many different kinds out there for many different things. I have the Polar FT4F It cost me $64 on Amazon.com and honestly it's the best money I have spent! The strap is worn around your chest right where your sternum ends. The transmitter is the little black thing and just snaps on the strap. Then of course the watch is just worn on your wrist. The transmitter sends your heart rate to your watch so you can keep track of where you should be to get the best results. You set your preferences, like weight, age, and sex, so you can h...

Well here it is, my first post on a Wednesday! It's actually kind of fun to post this mid week because its fresh. So... Another month is down here are my stats and pictures! Week 4:                           Week 16: Weight= 204lbs            Weight= 172lbs Chest= 42.5"                Chest= 37" R Arm= 13.5"                R Arm= 12.5" L Arm = 13.5"                L Arm= 12.5" Belly/Waist= 44.5"       Belly/Waist= 38.5" Hips= 44"                      Hips= 41.5" R Thigh= 27 3/4"           R Thigh= 25" L Thigh= 27"                  L Thigh= 25" Not too much of a change since the last picture but I definitely feel like it has changed! ...

Some of you may have been wondering what the hell happened last week. I didn't do my post on Monday cause well, really there was nothing to post about, other than my weight not changing. It gave me time to think about how to change up my routine and to get past this wonderful plateau that has come upon me. Not going to lie I have gotten a little relaxed with my eating habits, not caloric intake, but what I'm eating. Some of you may know I went camping a couple weekends ago and ever since then I have been craving non stop. Even caught myself binging a couple times. I still have been logging but it still looks so bad. We all go through it and even now when I'm starting to feel good about myself, I need to stay focused. So this month is a new month. Some changes are NEEDED right now. Starting today, I begin a fat-burning weightlifting routine. Everyday I will be doing a different body part with at least 30 min of cardio, which will not be hard since I love my cardio! Sundays w...

This morning I saw a 7... Right next to the 1. Yep I am on on my way to stealing home now! I am 179 as of today which means I have nine more, yes I said NINE more pounds until I reach my long term goal of 50 pounds! It is so close I can taste it! I'm not posting my stats cause I really haven't lost any inches this week, but I still feel great and people are noticing which is totally crazy! In fact, I had two people at my gym come up to me last week, never met them before in my life, and tell me that I look great and to keep up the great work! It really makes you feel damn amazing when people you don't know notice you and your hard work! I have never been proud of myself for accomplishing something like this. I know I probably repeat my self a lot, but every week, even day, I am proud of my accomplishments! I am no longer in my dark depressing hole with my negative thoughts and hatred. I am no longer giving myself excuses to not be at the gym. I am no longer stress eating or...